anxiety
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Wounds
People are often tender in the places where they’ve been hurt, physically and emotionally. But I’ve found that emotional or mental wounds can be harder to spot, even for the person who is wounded. They can be so painful that the mind tries to protect itself by obscuring those hurts from us, lest we encounter… Continue reading
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Life in Focus
Losing a loved one is a sobering reminder that one day we just… won’t be. This fabulous ride we’re on will end. This magical world with entertainment at your fingertips, an endless blue sky above, and oceans we’ll never get close to the bottom of — our existence within it is finite. And there’s nothing like… Continue reading
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Love Continued
“But what is grief, if not love persevering?” For much of my life I’ve hated endings. I thought the most perfect ending to a book was, “See you tomorrow.” If life doesn’t go on and, more importantly, continue to be lovely, what’s the point of existing at all? Ah, to be so young again. My… Continue reading
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Behind the Scenes of a Panic Attack
In December 2022, I forgot how to breathe normally. I no longer trusted my body to take in air on its own, so I would take over and try to pull in as much oxygen as possible. It turns out this is a recipe for a panic attack because you end up with too much… Continue reading
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Remember You Will Die
If I had leaves they would be yellowing. The buds have grown out fully and the ripe green of spring has faded, which comes with it’s own sense of mourning. When you see signs of youth falling away from you, I wonder, is there a single human who hasn’t panicked just a little? Memento mori,… Continue reading
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Loving Winter
Despite spending the last five winters on the East Coast, I am and always will be a California girl. It wasn’t perpetual metaphorical sunshine while I grew up there or when I lived there in my 20s, but when I think of California I see red woods, feel the sun on my face, and imagine… Continue reading
Mohini Kundu 